Here I am at a doughnut place in a mall on a Monday morning. Though I am doing some work-related stuff, this set up has been my typical and normal escapade from the routines of my life.  Somehow, the change in scenery makes me relaxed and I get to finish more work.  This is also the time when I let my thoughts run freely and so this post might very well reflect that.

I woke up this morning already thinking about life, how my existence for thirty years seem to include a lot of wasted years and how there are still many things to do in life and I haven’t even reached half of my list.  I think I am getting pressured with my age but I’m just shrugging it off. I should know more than that.  After all, I am a child of God and I should know that His plans for me are good, pleasing, and perfect.  Maybe I just have yet to perfect how I can appropriate these promises in my life.  So yes, this is a patience test.

See, I told you this was going to be very random. At this point, I’m thinking of my future life partner. You read it right, yes, a future life partner. I know I’m shocking you right now because for many years, I have been mum about this topic.  Somehow, living on my own for more than half of my life has toughened me and my tendency is to be really extra careful with things that I delve into.  And even at that, I have my fair share of relational boo-boos, too, which I know I don’t have the luxury of time to repeat the same mistakes.  I am in faith that I have learned my lesson and I am over that horrible test. Haha! Anyway, about the future life partner. I am reminded of one colleague who said that she doesn’t feel like a single person at all because of the many responsibilities placed on her.  I can very much relate to that.  I haven’t traveled, partied, or had night outs just like any other single person in the city would. And so, I was just asking God that when I get married, I would have gained a companion who will travel, see places, and explore the world with me. But for now, while he is frolicking somewhere else, I really hope and pray that God will straighten my path and my family’s as well, that things will fall in the right place, at the right time for all of us.

Don’t get me wrong. I am not in an emotional pity-party at the moment.  I just received many blessings yesterday—a surprise provision, had a grand time leading praise and worship in church, then had a very restful sleep, and this too, the change of scenery.  When good things come at the right place at the right time, they are true blessings.  And so I just have to wait some more for more good things to come soon.

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